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Postingan buat yang udah berat pulang ke Surabaya

lilia liliw trilili
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Liburan kali ini ada kebiasaan baru deh, nangis, iyaa :"( . Apalagi waktu liburan kali ini ga ada kegiatan apapun, juga ga keluar rumah, ini jadi bikin aku ga bisa berhenti mikir yang jelek-jelek

Sekarang kalo nerima chatnya atau smsnya juga malah bikin sedih, malah seringnya nangis :"( ,padahal seneng banget kalo dia udah sms atau ngechat :") ,malah nunggu-nunggu terus :"), aku gatau kenapa kok gini ya :") . Yang paling bikin nangis itu waktu temen deketku bilang gini "sudah berat rasanya pulang ke surabaya" Lohh :"( padahal yg di surabaya udah sampe galau nunggu ga pulang-pulang huhu . Mungkin dia nganggepnya biasa, yaudahlah kalau gitu :") emang temen deket paling susah di cari, udah dapet yang kaya kamu syukur banget, kalo mungkin bakal kehilangan kamu, gabisa ngapa-ngapain :"( , kamu juga punya mau sendiri, punya pilihan sendiri buat milih yang terbaik buat kamu.

pokoknya udah ngungkapin kecewanya di sini, lumayan mbantu bikin lega :")
aku maunya masih berharap banyak loo :")

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lilia liliw trilili

Chasing Pavements

I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, I know this is love

But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

I build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep on chasing pavements
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?


semuanya baik-gabaik

maybe you're gone :'(

lilia liliw trilili

Sondre Lerche
Maybe You're Gone

You have been waiting all your life
You use your patience to stay fine
Time moves on as you prepare
To tell yourself be reasonable
Then come the times you can't foresee
You cannot leave, you can't release
To keep you far from those dreams
Ignoring the right times
Oh, waiting was my life

For now it's too late
For you may not wait
And things that I have yet to know
Vanish before they're complete
I may turn around
To see if you're still there
But as for now, it's just not safe
Maybe you'll wait for me
Maybe you're gone

You've been preparing all your life
You've had some trouble getting it right
And you try to tell yourself it may work, as it should
But something good can do much harm
The good may kill for your embrace
To keep you far from those dreams
You know you cannot dream
I'm stuck for now, it seems

semoga semuanya ga tambah buruk, semoga aku bisa kuat, bisa sabar, tapi kalo tetep gabisa yaudah, harus tetep sabar :(
ga ada yang salah, ga ada yang jahat, semuanya emang harus kaya gini

mangkel

lilia liliw trilili

Curhat blog lagi (⌣́_⌣̀), lagi bener-bener ga tahan ngeluapin marah.
Iya ya aku mesti gini, udah jadi kebiasaanku gampang emosi, aku mesti ngerasa ga seneng kalo pas ada anak itu (⌣́_⌣̀). Awalnya ga perkara punya masalah sama dia, tapi aku ga suka sama gayanya dia, berlebihan, nge sok -_-, aku apa dia sih ya yang berlebian? Dia lo nyebelin banget, udah dua kali ini ya kaya gitu terus, bikin aku mangekel, dia bee ga sadar kalo dia lo udah berlebian menurutku, he aku benci banget sama kamu. sungguan aku gasuka sama kamu, aku mentolo nyuruh dia njauhi kamu, tapi ga mungkin hhaa :'(

Sedih sedih sedih sedih

Aku mesti ngerasa ga nyaman lo kalo deket sama kelompokmu :'( iya iya ga bisa mbaur, aku juga gamau repot-repot mbaur, aku udah ga cocok sama mereka, aku malah gasuka sama mereka, aku lebih suka jadi biasa ae timbang jadi kaya dia.

Ngerti ga ya kalo aku ngerasa ga nyaman gitu? Aku juga gamau berusaha bikin aku nyaman sama mereka, kamu udah tau, iya atau pura-pura gatau :'(

Barusan twitteran kan, aku emang jarang buka ubersoc soalnya ngabisin baterei, makanya jadi jarang, tapi pas tadi ya gitu :'( yang ta liat lo malah lebih males buka twitter lagi (⌣́_⌣̀) , maksutmu opo cak, karep mu ndol aku mangkel saiki, wes aku benci ambek kon saiki, sumpah iku nggarai aku badmood, ah udah tauk lah :'( :'( :'( :'(

sadly

lilia liliw trilili

At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping it all over his lap. When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice. When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back. When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row. When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house. When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was in fashion. You thanked him by telling him he had no taste. When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter. When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked. When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could. When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him by being on the phone all night. When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn. When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn’t be embarrassed in front of your friends. When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deep he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country. When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him . You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children. And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART

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