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Postingan buat yang udah berat pulang ke Surabaya

lilia liliw trilili
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Liburan kali ini ada kebiasaan baru deh, nangis, iyaa :"( . Apalagi waktu liburan kali ini ga ada kegiatan apapun, juga ga keluar rumah, ini jadi bikin aku ga bisa berhenti mikir yang jelek-jelek

Sekarang kalo nerima chatnya atau smsnya juga malah bikin sedih, malah seringnya nangis :"( ,padahal seneng banget kalo dia udah sms atau ngechat :") ,malah nunggu-nunggu terus :"), aku gatau kenapa kok gini ya :") . Yang paling bikin nangis itu waktu temen deketku bilang gini "sudah berat rasanya pulang ke surabaya" Lohh :"( padahal yg di surabaya udah sampe galau nunggu ga pulang-pulang huhu . Mungkin dia nganggepnya biasa, yaudahlah kalau gitu :") emang temen deket paling susah di cari, udah dapet yang kaya kamu syukur banget, kalo mungkin bakal kehilangan kamu, gabisa ngapa-ngapain :"( , kamu juga punya mau sendiri, punya pilihan sendiri buat milih yang terbaik buat kamu.

pokoknya udah ngungkapin kecewanya di sini, lumayan mbantu bikin lega :")
aku maunya masih berharap banyak loo :")

:(

lilia liliw trilili

Chasing Pavements

I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, I know this is love

But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

I build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep on chasing pavements
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?


semuanya baik-gabaik

maybe you're gone :'(

lilia liliw trilili

Sondre Lerche
Maybe You're Gone

You have been waiting all your life
You use your patience to stay fine
Time moves on as you prepare
To tell yourself be reasonable
Then come the times you can't foresee
You cannot leave, you can't release
To keep you far from those dreams
Ignoring the right times
Oh, waiting was my life

For now it's too late
For you may not wait
And things that I have yet to know
Vanish before they're complete
I may turn around
To see if you're still there
But as for now, it's just not safe
Maybe you'll wait for me
Maybe you're gone

You've been preparing all your life
You've had some trouble getting it right
And you try to tell yourself it may work, as it should
But something good can do much harm
The good may kill for your embrace
To keep you far from those dreams
You know you cannot dream
I'm stuck for now, it seems

semoga semuanya ga tambah buruk, semoga aku bisa kuat, bisa sabar, tapi kalo tetep gabisa yaudah, harus tetep sabar :(
ga ada yang salah, ga ada yang jahat, semuanya emang harus kaya gini

mangkel

lilia liliw trilili

Curhat blog lagi (⌣́_⌣̀), lagi bener-bener ga tahan ngeluapin marah.
Iya ya aku mesti gini, udah jadi kebiasaanku gampang emosi, aku mesti ngerasa ga seneng kalo pas ada anak itu (⌣́_⌣̀). Awalnya ga perkara punya masalah sama dia, tapi aku ga suka sama gayanya dia, berlebihan, nge sok -_-, aku apa dia sih ya yang berlebian? Dia lo nyebelin banget, udah dua kali ini ya kaya gitu terus, bikin aku mangekel, dia bee ga sadar kalo dia lo udah berlebian menurutku, he aku benci banget sama kamu. sungguan aku gasuka sama kamu, aku mentolo nyuruh dia njauhi kamu, tapi ga mungkin hhaa :'(

Sedih sedih sedih sedih

Aku mesti ngerasa ga nyaman lo kalo deket sama kelompokmu :'( iya iya ga bisa mbaur, aku juga gamau repot-repot mbaur, aku udah ga cocok sama mereka, aku malah gasuka sama mereka, aku lebih suka jadi biasa ae timbang jadi kaya dia.

Ngerti ga ya kalo aku ngerasa ga nyaman gitu? Aku juga gamau berusaha bikin aku nyaman sama mereka, kamu udah tau, iya atau pura-pura gatau :'(

Barusan twitteran kan, aku emang jarang buka ubersoc soalnya ngabisin baterei, makanya jadi jarang, tapi pas tadi ya gitu :'( yang ta liat lo malah lebih males buka twitter lagi (⌣́_⌣̀) , maksutmu opo cak, karep mu ndol aku mangkel saiki, wes aku benci ambek kon saiki, sumpah iku nggarai aku badmood, ah udah tauk lah :'( :'( :'( :'(

sadly

lilia liliw trilili

At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping it all over his lap. When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice. When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back. When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row. When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house. When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was in fashion. You thanked him by telling him he had no taste. When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter. When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked. When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could. When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him by being on the phone all night. When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn. When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn’t be embarrassed in front of your friends. When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deep he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country. When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him . You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children. And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART

:"(

lilia liliw trilili

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with God. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand.

• Professor: You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?
• Student: Yes, sir.
• Professor: So, you believe in God?
• Student: Absolutely, sir.
• Professor: Is God good?
• Student: Sure.
• Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is God good, then? Hmm?
• (Student was silent)
• Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?
• Student: Yes.
• Professor: Is Satan good?
• Student: No.
• Professor: Where does Satan come from?
• Student: From.. God.
• Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
• Student: Yes.
• Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?
• Student: Yes.
• Professor: So who created evil?
• (Student didn’t answer)
• Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
• Student: Yes, sir.
• Professor: So, who created them?
• (Student had no answer)
• Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?
• Student: No, sir.
• Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God.
• Student: No, sir.
• Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?
• Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
• Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
• Student: Yes.
• Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
• Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.
• Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
• Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
• Professor: Yes.
• Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?
• Professor: Yes.
• Student: No, sir, there isn’t.
• (The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
• Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
• (There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)
• Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
• Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
• Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
• Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?
• Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
• Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?
• Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
• Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.
• Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
• (The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)
• Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
• (The class was in uproar)
• Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?
• (The class broke out into laughter)
• Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?
• (The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)
• Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.
• Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!
• ----------------------------------------------------
• That student was Albert Einstein.
• Brilliant.
• Beautifully done.
• ----------------------------------------------------
• wow, this was really albert einstein? had no idea he if believed in anything at all. when stories become about real people don't they hit so much harder?

legowo

lilia liliw trilili

Hahaha aku mau legowo(kata desna)wes, gaenak emang akhirnya kayak gini. Awalnya berat lo :'( haduh sedih ya.

GA RELA :"(

lilia liliw trilili

I never knew perfection til
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?

It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday

Maybe we’re better off this way?

convers

lilia liliw trilili

Sebenernya aku radak benci sama dewa, aku juga salah sering ga dateng kalo pas latihan atau mau rekaman, tapi aku juga pasti punya alasan kan. Kita satu kelompok seharusnya selain kompak ya saling ngerti dong, jangan maunya sendirian ngerasa paling bisa terus berasa sok ketua. Ya ga apa Dewa jadi ketua tapi ga usah sok ngebos juga tauk!

Sebel aku punya kelompok kaya gini, sms nya juga gausah pake ngancem ta dew, mbo kira aku sapamu hah? Ga gitu juga caranya kalo mau kelompok jadi kompak

Kemaren aku minggu gadateng soalnya diajak beli hape, sekarang kalo masih waras sih aku pasti lebih milih beli hape lah :p

aku juga salah kok aku tau, tapi aku ga suka kalo caranya dewa kaya gitu. Nyebelin tauk